I have spent hours each night reading stories about mothers. I cannot explain why I'm doing this for the past couple of weeks, but I am enjoying this hobby. My friends know that I have spent almost 16 years of my life without my mom, and I always say that I am used on having my dad as my parent. Just now, I have realized that it is really different if you have your mom around you while growing up. That mother figure can cause a whole lot difference in your life. Just a thought, maybe seeing my sister juggling with those motherly stuff for her 4 year-old daughter and almost 3 week-old son amazed me so much. Yes, I describe the love of a mother to her child as an AMAZING love.
Let me share you my random thoughts about momma! :">
I always shed tears whenever I watch movies/tv progs about family, especially about parents. It is very unusual for me to cry over an article, 'cause I find it easier to feel the emotions when I see it happen. Reading some articles (I'll share some links later) about mother's sacrifices, true stories, made me really emotional. I JUST MISS HAVING A MOM AROUND.
I grew up with my dad. I spent my whole life with him, that is why I am such a spoiled bratt. My sibs and some of my relatives would describe me as a bratty little girl. Well, I cannot blame them, I was the only one who never left my dad's side while growing up. I was fine with my situation, you know, getting stuff that I want, telling people the story that I am from a broken family, and actually being proud of it. Until one night, when I was 10 years old, I remember sketching a woman holding a child's hand, and my tears began to fall. then my dad approached me and asked why, the only thing that I said to him was, "Nasaan ba si mommy, daddy? bakit siya umalis? kelan siya babalik? si mommy!! si mommy!" I was crying the whole night, then my dad carried me to my room, and brought me my then favorite hotdog sandwich and said to me, "anak, babalik din si mommy. hindi lang natin alam kung kailan ha. nandito naman ako e. hindi kita iiwan." Those were my dad's exact words. I will never forget those words, for they comforted me that night when I looked for my mom. Right there and then, I was convinced that I have a mom in my dad's body.
We used to send our mom letters and recorded voice tapes since she's in the US, and she used to reply. Then, we had those long phone convos, but all of those where stopped. We counted years until we have spoken to our mom again. Among my sibs, I am the one closest to our mom. I call her through Vonage when I have free time, and thanks to advance technology, we now talk through Viber everyday. I love my mom as much as I love my dad. I'm sure she has reasons why she left us, and her efforts on reaching out now is more than enough to make up on those times that she was totally gone.
Seeing my sister now juggling with those motherly stuff made me think on what if our mom is here, will our life be any better? or what if she's here, what kind of persons are we now. I think it will be different. My sister is a disciplinarian type of parent, and I am pretty sure that she's like my mom. My relatives said that my dad is the complete opposite of my mom when it comes to parenting (my dad is a spoiler *wink*) so I guess, yea, my sister is like our mom. I just wish one day, I will get to experience the life with a mother.
I salute all the mothers for their sacrifices. Honestly, I don't think I will be ready anytime soon for the responsibilities. The sacrifices of those amazing woman to be away from her kids to work, to be a zombie-like person just to comfort their babies, and to let go of their life to offer to it to their kids are just so uhh-maziiing!
I tell you now, treasure your mothers (and your fathers *wink*). say I love you every single minute and yes, follow their "military-like commands" for you never know what you're missing out until you lose it. It is hard to live every single day of your life asking "what if SHE is here?" so PLEASE, try to live everyday saying, "THANK GOD MOM IS HERE."
These two articles are my personal faves:
Salute to all the mothers out there! You are AMAZING WOMEN!
H&K,
♥Blair C.N.
